January 27, 2005

the best day ever

I had the most pleasant day today.  It’s amazing what can be accomplished when you don’t have a crazy 8 year old in the classroom. 

Basically I was misinformed yesterday.  I thought I was attending a meeting about the suspension, but that never happened.  Basically my paperwork was enough for the school to call the regional office and get the suspension approved.  Apparently you aren’t allowed to suspend K-3.  She only broke four of the chancellors code of conduct rules.  I think even the dean was suprised with what went on in my classroom. 

So I asked where she was going to go Tuesday, because I don’t want her in my class. Basically, it’s back into my classroom.  I guess they are going to talk to me to make me feel comfortable.  I think I’ll just explain my kids have been through too much, and I have done everything I can do, and she really can’t function in my class and convince them she’d be better off somewhere else.  I’ll also make it clear my kids will be better off with her somewhere else.  If they decide to keep her, they better come running to my room the next time I call for help.  They better come up with who to call and someone who will run when I need the help.  It’s rediculous I was asking for help on Thursday, Friday, Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday before they decided that I really needed help.  By that time, it got too far out of hand and I just lost it.  It’s so scary when you are in charge of 24 kids, and can’t control one, you lose control of everything.  It’s scary to think that I did everything I could do, and it wasn’t enough.  She was hurting my kids and I couldn’t stop it.  I never want to be in that situation again.  I think it’s time to tell someone everything I’ve done for her.  I think she’ll end up in my room, if that’s what they want, but if that is the case, they have to do something for me to ensure that this will not happen again. 

The suspension is because of her actions, but she lost control because of her home life.  Her home life has not changed, so I don’t think she will be fine since she got the suspension.  It’s not solving her problems.  I just wish I could go back and fix everything that happened, but I think no matter what, the outcome would still be the same. 

January 26, 2005

My very bad, horrible, terrible day

I think I may have just had one of the worst days of my life.  I knew I should have stayed home, but I had two appointments with parents and I had to show.  After writing up what happened I now have a massive headache and I need to go to sleep, so I can function tomorrow.  Looks like tomorrow will be spent in meetings, trying to get someone suspended.  After the suspension, I hope to have her removed from my class, not to mention she will be evaluated and refered for mental issues.  Basically she is crazy.  It looks like she will be suspended and most likely removed from my class.  If she isn’t removed, I will quit.  I can’t handle her, but I think they realize that and realize I have done all I am able to do.  I think the administration is on my side, but one can’t really tell.  No one even really asked me about all the shit that happened.  All they know is there was a fight and she walked out, I guess that’s all they need to know.  I guess I’ll find out tomorrow.  Hopefully it will be a better day, it can’t get much worse. 

January 25, 2005

Is the week over yet?

Argh...I came home from work so pissed off and frustrated.  Pissed off and frustrated at both a student and the administration.  I just feel that if a child talks back to a teacher and says the teacher smells and that she doesn’t like her and refuses to listen, disrupts the whole class for a series of 3 days, and refuses to do any of the school work, I think there should be consequences to their actions.  Not to mention walking out of a classroom and hitting students.  It was just violent.  I guess since this child has problems and suspension isn’t the answer, this child can do whatever the fuck she wants to.  Not only that, but I should actually give her rewards for any little thing good that she does.  Let me just say, I’ve tried it, and that didn’t work, now this kid needs to be punished.  So I decided I’m going to punish her.  So for a week, she won’t be doing the fun things like going to gym or dance or whatever.  Apparently because she acted out, that was too much that a week is too long for her and we need to take tiny baby steps.  So I’m just at a fuck that I’m not doing that and she’s getting my punishment.  She needs to know she’s not in control and she won’t get her way.  I’m done.  I can’t wait to talk to her uncle.  I’m suppose to meet with him on Friday, but I doubt he will show. 

Not only that, but the odor problem that I’ve been complaining about not being resolved still has not been mentioned to anyone again.  So I’m just going to have to handle it myself.  I’m really beginning to hate that place.  Tomorrow, I’m just closing my door and not talking to anyone.  I’m tired and frustrated and still not feeling great.  I think I need my week to be here already.  It’s only Tuesday night! 

January 23, 2005

all about who you know....

So while going out to my car, we (my mom and I) started to talk to this guy who ended up using his snowblower to help me dig out my car. 

We also started talking to a neighbor whose house my car was parked in front of.  I’ve known him a long time, I went to elementary school with one of his sons.  So we get to talking and one of his sons works for sanitation, which is why the plow keeps going up and down thier street.  So we told him to send him over to our block and five minutes later our street was plowed.  Now they keep plowing our street.  It’s all about who you know. 

Blizzard of 2005

So it looks like we got over a foot of snow and it is still snowing.  What are the chances of NYC public schools being closed tomorrow?  Not likely!  I’m still hopeful.  For one thing I really have no desire to go back to work ever again after the week, I had last week.  I also don’t want to go out with snow on the roads.  I also still am not feeling great.  I really could use a snow day tomorrow.

Maybe we’ll still be in a state of emergency tomorrow morning.  Just maybe. 

January 22, 2005

Sickly

I keep telling myself, that if I just give into this cold, I will start to feel better.  So last night at 8:30 while I was starting to fall asleep, I decided to get up, get ready for bed, and just go to sleep.  Unfortunately, insead of feeling better today, I just feel worse.  I still feel tired, I have a cough, and my nose hurts, and my throat hurts.  I guess I’ll just try to rest as much as I can this weekend, and hopefully, I will feel better by Monday. 

January 21, 2005

Good bye bad week....hello weekend.....

I had part two of the day from hell.  The fact that I feel like crap, did not help the situation at all.  So rather than complain, maybe I’ll mention one good thing that happened today. 

January 19, 2005

My first post, and all I do is complain....

It’s official I am sick!  I think it’s just a cold, but I feel horrible.  It’s hard to teach 24 seven year olds when you feel like total crap.